I'm actually very excited about going off to the UK to study even though I might not like what I'm studying. Still, the prospect of just flying off and living on my own in a foreign place is thrilling but scary at the same time. Of course, that's provided I can achieve the grades I need. Not that it's a huge problem but the standard I set for myself is way above the level I need to achieve. Sometimes I wish that I don't set such high expectations of myself because I just give myself more stress. Then again, stress is good for building character, right?
My future also includes my future after university and that's the worst part because I have no idea what career I want to pursue (excluding, you know, that thing). Well, ideally, I would be signed to a record label but that is just as remote as me becoming a millionaire tomorrow. But, still, I have been doing some research on that and every single piece of advice is to have a demo to distribute to labels or random people involved in the industry. Sounds easy enough but recording a demo requires some moolah and I don't have much of that (my parents' money isn't mine, FYI). Well, I've been thinking of alternative way to do it and I might have come up with one although I haven't tested it yet. Well, that'll be my first personal project during the holidays after A2 exams.
Still wondering whether or not to perform during prom. Auditions are next Monday and I do not have much time left to make a decision. The thing is, if I want to perform, it'd be best if somebody could accompany me on guitar but I don't really want to distract people from their studies. What a dilemma. I guess I could play the guitar myself but I suck at it and I am not at my best singing while playing the guitar.
This couple of months will be one heck of a ride. Mostly because I got to persevere and make myself study for A2. I honestly just lost all motivation to study after trials. The holiday was such a momentum-bummer.
Back to the books? Bye for now. :)
