New Year's Eve is tomorrow. Time passes by so quickly. It only seems like yesterday when I was in college mugging for my A Levels. Now, here I am, in university, far away from home. This year seems like 2 years crammed into one. So much has happened.
The first milestone of the year was finishing my A Levels. A Levels was the first time that I actually took my studies really seriously. I worked my butt off even when my parents don't seem to see it. I am really satisfied with my results even if my parents aren't. I have learned that I'm not living my life for anyone. To me, happiness should be accessible and not that elusive thing people pursue. Everything can bring you happiness, you just need to know where to look.
Second milestone of the year, I got my first job. An internship at a local bank. People were great. Job wasn't too hard. But to be honest, I wasn't happy with my job. This experience showed me that no matter how hard I tried, I just couldn't work for the money, not that I was paid a lot. In any case, it was invaluable experience even if it wasn't what I wanted. I do admire people who can work for the money. I can't. But I do appreciate the money I got from it.
Third milestone of the year? Flying off to a place I have never been to before and staying there for the rest of the year. I am not going to lie, this may be the start of the best years of my life. I may not be studying a course that I really want to, but it's been good. So far in university, I have been able to do so much stuff that I would not do if I was back in Malaysia. I guess that's the benefit of not having my parents watching my back every step of the way. I joined the Glee club and no one judged me. I formed a band with some random people I met at a social and played my first gig. I got drunk, puked and no one laughed. I have non-Asian friends. I found that partying is my best stress-reliever. I learned to cook. I saw a fox. I have learned to be myself in front of strangers. I do think that university has brought out a lot in me. Learn to take the leap, you never know where you'll end up.
Milestones aside, it's time to reflect on other aspects of life. Future career-wise? I am definitely much closer if I decide to get a normal job involving banks or accounting (thanks to the internship). In terms of what I really want to do, there's progress but not as much as I would like. Have to work on it. I really admire the people around who are so motivated to get internships and stuff. They know what they want and are working towards it everyday while I am here juggling preparations for 2 different career paths at once. Still no luck in the love department, but I have managed to open up more to people. Maybe next year will my lucky year?
I still do miss home and the people back home. I don't feel like I'm talking to them as much as I should. I feel so distant (literally). I do want to go home. But there is still so much I haven't done yet.
New Year resolutions:
1. Get better at piano. Don't let my bandmates down,
2. Get an acoustic guitar (with my own money) and get my arse down to learning it properly.
3.Apply and get a spring internship or get an internship in a record company.
4. Talk more to people. (I have made progress this year but it could be better.)
5. Ace my first year.
6. Be happy.
Have a happy new year everybody!
YiJiun
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